One Experience at a time
One Surprise after another
One Thought after another
One Realization after another
One Regret after another
One Step Forward after another
I realized no matter how well prepared I am for the future, it never fails to take me by surprise. Each and every time things go right, they go wrong. Its no longer easy to differentiate between good days and bad days. The white and black, sadness and happiness, expectations and disappointments, they just mesh together, forming an unidentifiable lump of unknown, uncertainties. Even if I know what is gonna happen next, I would not be able to know how I will be feeling next. Feelings are the most fickle of thing, yet as powerful as the hurricane. Never knew how to deal with it, never tried to deal with it. Was running and running and running, in rounds and rounds and rounds. Moving yet stagnant like a spinning coin that never stops. Moving forward brings strength, not from understanding, but from the pure joy of moving, like a zombie maybe. A zombie may have a better time, or not, I won't know, until I become one, or not.
